Friends

Today we met again after 3 weeks of silence.. That awkwardly normal feeling when we starred at each other while carrying a small conversation. I must admit, I was pretty disappointed seeing you bringing that whole gang of people with you tonight... I guess everything has officially came to an end this time. It's unfortunate to see that we could not make it to that one year point; let's hope we can actual be friends again.

Today is the day... May 11th, 2012.
A little disappointed that you have no clue what this day is... but glad we made it to this point.
Crying on this day does not make things a little better for me...

Why | April 17

So much I heard this weekend.. So much that I didn't want to hear about...

How can things change so fast all of a sudden... The feelings not right anymore. You use to care so much, but now I don't seem to mean anything at all... I'm so tired, I want to break up.

Senses | April 12

Exam in less than 2 hours and I'm just sitting at Starbucks thinking about nothing study-related... Starring at the clock every few minutes is not making things anything better.

Feeling of the day | I always come last, everyone else always comes ahead of me.

Mad | April 4

Just when I started to think that things were "actually" starting to get better... I was totally wrong. Why do I feel like our problems never seem to end... One after another... I'm so fucking tired of this.

1. You use to call me every night latest at around 12-1am... but now... the earliest you call me is like 3am... Am I just suppose to stay up that late and wait for your call every night? NO!

2. You once said you would never hang up the phone on me.. but the past 3 times.. anything I say that got you a LITTLE unhappy, you say "ok 你去睡吧"....

3. You know I dislike people that plays video games... why do I feel like you play so much more now compared to before...

Sunday | March 25

Today was finally the day.. where the decision was "suppose" to be made. A really rough morning to start off the day for me.. Anyways, there was a long walk and short talk session at the beach. Once again, it was the phrase "I need some more time". I'm so sick and tired of this.. yet I didn't have the courage to just say no to it. Let's see what will happen after tonight...

Day 5 | March 24

I have nothing to say about today... pretty much just went by nicely.

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Had a movies session watching 21 Jump Street with Mary, Lawrence, Howard, and Adrian. We then traveled to North York with the 5 of us plus Sherry all squished in Lau's car. We had dinner at Ajisen followed by bubble tea at Teashop168 where we played cards, drawing, Iphones, charades, etc.

Day 4 | March 23

Trying to make every single day filled with something to do so there's absolutely not time to stop and think about stupid things. I couldn't help but to comment on his rr status today... I regret it though.

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This night, I met up with my old buddies all from different universities; utsg, utsc, and waterloo! We had our usual card sessions and late night walks, it was kind of scary to walk in such a late night, haven't had this feeling in a long time.

Day 3 | March 22

You uploaded a song on facebook today; I teared as it played through but after the song ended, I started to think... was it meant for me or her... When will all these questions leave my head...

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I also got my third ear piercing today! That was SO PAINFUL... but very exciting as well!

Day 2 | March 21

Second day... everything seemed to be going well up until the sun started to disappear.

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Burgers like the old days with Merre today... Still tasted amazing like before... We even made a visit to DMCI and DMMS afterwards. Feels so nice to walk back into the past thinking about all the foolish things we've once done.

It was so delicious that we wanted more!

Day 1 | March 20

Seeing this ring on another girls finger just seems to make things worse for myself... Something that was meant for just me and him now also belongs to another girl.... It's like taking something that I now own, right out of my hands...

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Lunch @Ajisen and then bubble tea with Howard today, we had the longest chatting session about life.

Break | March 20

Five days break starting today... I wonder what the conclusion will be on Sunday...

Personal | March 19

You once said you two were already over... You lied.
You once said the ring was only meant for me... You lied.
You once said you never saw her ever since... You lied.
You once said you were truthful and sincere... You lied.
You once said you only applied for unis in T.Dot... You lied.
You once said I was your one and only... You lied.
You once told me you will never lie again... You lied.
You told me you love me... Is that a lie too?

Untitled | March 8

Today you told me that you'll always be here for me... even if we're just friends.